Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Switcheroo Jitters

When it comes to change, I talk a big game. Change promotes growth! Change makes life more interesting! It can cause a chain reaction that leads to all sorts of wonderful new experiences!

When I found out last week that the fun, young company I work for may get bought out by a staid, decades old behemoth, I said, "It'll all be fine—if I get laid off, it means I'll get to go try something new." A friend went so far as to call me "cool as a cucumber" about the career-rattling news. I honestly thought I felt fine...that is, until I went to sleep.

My Friday night shuteye was spent in a panic because, in my dreams, I'd been canned. Then Saturday night I was on a beach where all sorts of giant sea creatures were washing up on shore because of global warming. Uh...hello...can you say troubled subconscious?

Although I truly believe that change is good, not knowing if and when a change is going to occur can be nerve-racking. Even when you're a chilly cucumber, it's not easy being in limbo. At least not when you're sleeping. I guess the only thing anyone can do is remind themselves (right before bed) that everything will work out. If you have faith, everything will fall into place—including your ability to handle the shift at hand. If that doesn't work, there's always wine and Tylenol PM.


semichrmd said...

It's funny I work for a big fashion company in NY & we are going through the same thing (which we also went through 2 years ago as well). After months, and months of stressing "What am I going to do, where am I going to work" I finally came to the same resolve as you - whatever happens, happens. I don't know about you, but I could use a nice long vacation! Good luck through all the changes!!!

Anonymous said...

Dreams are a blessing and you shouldn't try to shut them out. Sometimes they tell you things about yourself you're too scared to admit when you're awake. I believe dreams are the voice of your true self and if you listen to them you can overcome any fears or worries you have. Don't get me wrong, I am still a HUGE fan of wine at the end of a long day, but don't discount your dreams. Figure out what they mean and you'll be better for it. Try this site - http://www.hyperdictionary.com/dream . Sweet dreams!