Thursday, March 3, 2011

Doh! My Days Are Almost Up

The other night, I had a startling thought: in less than 3 weeks, I'm not going to be engaged anymore.

Although I'm very excited to finally marry my sweet dream man, I also feel a little sad that our engagement period is drawing to a close. I don't know if it's because Mr. Wonderful has been in Europe since January 10, or if all the wedding chores have overpowered the moments of reflection and appreciation, but part of me feels like I haven't even fully had a chance to enjoy being engaged—and now it's almost over. Poor me, cry me a river, I know, I know.

It's just that there's really something sort of magical about that anticipatory state. It's really fun to look forward to things. As antsy as I was for Mr. W to propose, I also got a kick out of the continual wondering, is he going to do it tonight? Even after I had the ring on my finger, I caught myself thinking that a couple times when we were heading out to nice dinners.

Oh, how important it is to live in the moment.

I'm going to try very hard to soak in the last fleeting days of being a fiancé. And when Mr. W comes home on the 12th, I'll try really hard to focus on him and the excitement of our impending big day, rather than the laundry list of last minute things we'll have to do.

A friend told me Monday that she wishes me peace of mind and presence of heart on the day of our wedding. Seems like a good thing to hope for every day before and after it, too.


Mandy's Kidding said...

That's a lovely wish for all of us, every day.


Anonymous said...

Ack! I can't believe it's coming up so soon! I guarantee you'll love every second of your wedding. :)

One of my bridesmaids (who is also a wedding mag editor) gave me some good advice. Make sure you soak in every little moment as much as you can. For example, at the end of the aisle after you walk with Mr. W as husband and wife, turn around to see all the truly happy friends and family members that came for you guys and take a mental snapshot.

I'm anxiously awaiting for all the stories and details you'll be posting after the big day!

Jane Moneypenny said...

Wow, time FLIES. I can't believe it's already time! You're going to have a wonderful day, a happy marriage and a lifetime of love and laughter. Your post always reminds me of one of my favorite poems, "Ode to a Grecian Urn"

Bold Lover, never, never canst thou kiss,
Though winning near the goal—yet, do not grieve;
She cannot fade, though thou hast not thy bliss,
For ever wilt thou love, and she be fair!

How anticipation is such a wonderful feeling.

And more importantly, life is lived in moments. :) I'm so so happy and excited for you.

Scribe said...

Savour those last days, Mel! And yes, just sit back and enjoy the whole day. All of your hard work will come together! Congrats!

HunnerWoof said...

I TOTALLY know what you mean. The other day I got some tacos from the street vendor, and I lived in a constant state of anticipation all afternoon. Wondering...will I need to run for the bathroom, or is all well? Cherish this time, Mel Heth.

Danielle said...

I can't believe it is coming so soon! It is so exciting! Babies will be the next thing to look forward to!

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

So, you can't make up for days past. But, you can take charge of the days to come. Here's what I say ... set a date when you're no longer going to be worried about the details of your wedding. From that moment on, you will truly live in the moment without a care. For me, I said I'd stop tending to details once the wedding weekend arrived. Friday night was our rehearsal dinner and I had an absolute blast starting then and lasting through our honeymoon. Seriously, things might not go exactly as planned, but so long as you and Mr. W are there, that's what matters most! I'm so excited for all the good things to come to you!

Sizzle said...

It did come fast! I really hope you can have that peace of mind. I know it is hard for us over-planners but you deserve to just BE in the moments- they are so special and one of a kind.

I feel the same way about anticipation. It's a delicious state to be in.

Anonymous said...

You have to admit, much has changed since we first ran into each other on the internetz... well, maybe a little more so for you than for me.

And I'm still wondering where my wedding invite is. ;)

MagMc said...

Can't wait to see you today - to toast to and revel in this day of your joyous engagement! :) You are an inspiration!