Friday, November 20, 2009

One Foot in the Grave


A few years ago (and many, many before that) when I was single, I could jam-pack my schedule until there was barely any time to change my underwear between events. I loved going out with my single girlfriends—whether for an evening run at the beach or a night of bar-hopping in Venice or Santa Monica—and would often catch myself in these moments of bliss over how delightfully exciting my life was.

I remember driving through downtown LA on numerous occasions on my way home, admiring the city lights and thinking how alive and young and fun I felt.

This week, I met up with a friend for dinner in Santa Monica and as I drove through the glistening metropolis of downtown, I felt something quite different: tired.

I don’t know what it is, but in the last couple years it’s like my body has discovered its real age and it feels OLD. It doesn’t want to stay up late drinking, it wants to accidentally fall asleep on Mr. W’s couch while watching The Food Network.

I experienced a similar realization at the U2 concert last month. I’ve seen The Boys seven other times with GA floor tickets, and I’ve always left the concert buzzing with exhilaration. But this time, I left with a sore back, aching feet and an ear that wouldn’t stop ringing for two days.

People, I think the machine is breaking down.

The funny part is that I’ve challenged myself physically more in the last couple years than I did for the first 31! When I was young and spry, I wasn’t running half marathons and climbing mountains. I thought that stuff was supposed to help me stay youthful!

I know there’s no avoiding the age goblins. But I just really wish that when I sat on the floor to make jewelry or wrap a birthday present, I didn’t start to get stiff before I stood up again. That used to happen to our dog as a kid. And he’s dead now.

It scares me that this is only the beginning… It’s downhill from here… What do you all do to stay feeling young?

11 comments:

Scribe said...

I can't even get up off of the couch without something hurting, and it's just in the past two years that I've noticed this. I too used to flit from activity to activity, often booking three things in one night, working 10-hour days only to go dancing later that night AND get up for work the following day. I'm not sure what the answer is, but I know you're on the right track with the running, etc.

Nilsa @ SoMi Speaks said...

You definitely don't want to be around when Sweets and I are getting ready for bed. We moan about how stiff we are from working out. How tired we are from ... doing nothing at all. We take Alleve on a regular basis. I'm not sure if it's any consolation that ... YOU'RE NOT ALONE!

Mandy_Fish said...

When I realize I have to go grocery shopping after work I think, "Oh no!" And then I calculate how much less time I'll have to relax because of it.

I'm tired too.

Plus it doesn't help that it's getting dark out so early. Makes me just want to hibernate. Remember how young we always feel in spring/summer?

Amy Turpin said...

I thought having kids would help me feel younger. Ya right!!! While they do allow me to play with fun kid toys and go to kid movies and do FUN kid stuff everyday, I am more tired now than I EVER have been, I often go to bed before 9:00, and after playing with said toys, I can hardly get up off the floor due to aching joints. When I do get a chance to go out with my girlfriends, I can only have a glass of wine or 2 so that I can still be mommy at 5 am the next day. No more stumbling home after a fun night of drinking and dancing, or welcoming the sunrise, and then sleeping it off all day. Oh well, the only thing I can say is I'm sure glad I did have those fun times when I was "young". Good luck!!!

Mike129 said...

Younger women help me feel young.

Except when they point and laugh.

justrun said...

Oh, you know, I do all that stuff, too. And at the young age of 30, I feel pretty good. I mean, a little slower but still pretty damn good.


And then I wake up the next morning, try to move my body and OH MY GOD, the stiffness, the cracking. It is all too much.

Anonymous said...

So don't be making fun of me and my tired and weary bones and telling me I need to keep moving.
I have, and I do, and I am "STIFF" trying to keep up with all you young people. The one important thing is to live healthy and think
young.

laura said...

I hear ya! I was even too tired last night to go to dinner...couldn't wait to just get home and put on my pj's. :) At least you're not alone.

Anonymous said...

By that standard, not only do I feel old, I'm not sure I was ever young!

Big Sister said...

Try being the older sister....I just keep telling myself it could be alot worse.

thecoconutdiaries said...

I blame all that darn exercise and hot sex. You ever notice how lonely, overweight, homebodies live forever and all you happy fitness freaks die at 40?? Ethan Zohn has cancer. Dick Chaney still alive. I'm just sayin'