Wednesday night, Mr. Wonderful sent me a picture of our cluster of newborns. We love dreaming about the vineyard we'll live on one day, with goats and chickens roaming about and a small production of chardonnay or pinot noir growing in neat rows.
It's hard to stay focused on the present when there are so many things to look forward to.
As I drove down Franklin Avenue in Hollywood this week, I watched a chic hipster girl walking her dog in sunglasses and earbuds. "Am I going to be that girl when I move here?" I wondered. I can't wait to call myself a citizen of Tinseltown.
I cannot wait to cohabitate with Mr. W and I cannot wait to marry him.
But I know that this time right now should be cherished. I need to slow down and be in these moments of puzzle-piecing anticipation. How are we going to make everything fit together for our special day? I should be enjoying the process like love of the game.
I sort of forgot this for a little while. Then I was making an appointment to go look at bridesmaid dresses this weekend and the woman on the phone said, "Are you the bride?" I am the bride. I had almost forgotten.
Tonight Mr. W and I met with our officiant. I researched a variety of people online, and as soon as I got to her website, I just felt like she was it. There was an energy about her that came off the page, and her site was peppered with pro-gay marriage messages, which was exactly what I wanted. Sitting in the coffeeshop with her tonight, I got teary as she walked us through the vows she had prepared. Like the moment I tried on my dress and remembered: I'm getting married. This isn't a race to the perfectly planned party. It's a single season in my life that I'll only experience once. So I'm going to be much more careful about enjoying it.
204 days to go until The Big Day. I'll try to tackle each one slowly.
6 comments:
I just got chills reading this!
You are going to be glad you're taking time to write about this time even as a little blog post, I'll bet, because no matter what it's going to feel so fast.
Yes, enjoy this time. You have the rest of your life to get to the rest of your life.
Enjoying each moment as you check things off your wedding to-do list is really amazing. You're soaking it all in, fitting the pieces together and will surely be a beautiful bride on the other side!!!
Slowing down is hard for me so it's good to have the reminder from time to time. This is a wonderful time to cherish! I'm so excited for you.
I am so excited for you. It is true that you will look back at this time as very special. But it is so hard to be in the "now" when you’re are over the moon with excitement that you're going to be married to your Mr. Wonderful.
Enjoy all of it. Present and future. Drink it in!
xo
slowing down is good. if you try to rush it, it just seems like work.
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